WITH LOVE,ATIN.

Tuesday, September 23, 2008

hello readers out dere!

2nd post for todayy. currentlyy, im sleepyy but i could nort sleep. do nort know y. tryy to close myy eyes tapii tkk blehh. ati tkk sdap sakk. i kept thiinkiing of hyme onlyy. onlyy hyme! arghhh. smp biler ako nkk jadi mcm gini seyy. when will dis disaster end? im tired of all dis fuckiing feelings n everitinkk. i had decided to 4give hyme. lagipon, nie kan bulan ramadan. bulan ygg baekk. so, i shld 4give hyme. 4give n 4get is de best thiing to do. lagipon, i do nort want to dendam2 wif hyme. ape ygg ako dpt klao ako dendam2 kat dier. tol tk? wat bestie sayy is truthh. i dun have to 4get hyme totally. just remember his kindness n everitinkk towards mie. its truthh i still love hyme n could nort 4get hyme. maybe he can 4get mie bcoz of dat gerl but nort mie. im nort easilyy can 4get towards de guyy dat i love soo muchh. i tryy to kol hyme up usiing myy hm num but could nort get thru. i tinkk he change his num bcoz of mie. ): told bestie about dat n bestie sayy dat maybe bcoz of dat gerl. i don know lahh. i felt somethiing is wrong or maybe he's gone bckk. ohhh! im nort sure. maybe he happy wif dat gerl. haixx. sumtyme, i felt sad when i tinkk bckk about wat he sayy to mie dat dayy. sungguhh menyakitkan ati. dier dhh saket kan ati ako giler rabakk tapii ako masehh igt same dier. aduhhh! suchh a difficult situation i had gone thru. yahh. i suffered alot bcoz of hyme alreadyy. bestie know how i gone thruu dis situation alone. still, im strong enoughh to face de consequences n everitinkk. i just hope he will be alright yahh. ako bukan nyer jahat sgt utk menyumpahh dier rabak2 kan. in de ferst place, i curse hyme bcoz i was totallyy hurt wif wat he had done to mie. nort de ferst tyme. but manyy tymes. too patience alreadyy.i will always prayy 4 hyme watever he do. ako baekk ati sgt but he did nort see myy kindness. he wants to be wif another gerl kan. so, let hyme be. maybe he's happyy wif dat wayy. i could nort do anitinkk. i just hope he will regret n repent. dats all. dats myy wishh. ):

atin oh atin.