WITH LOVE,ATIN.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

hello readers out dere!

i went hm earlyy todayy. i felt damn tired n myy bodyy was verii weakk. just could nort walkk properlyy. myy stomachh cramps damn hurt. i could nort do anitinkk but just bear wif it. bcoz of dis, i gort no mood to talkk n everitinkk in skul just now. walked arnd j8 4 awhile n den straight awayy went hm. just cannot tahan. when i reached hm, papa sayy to mie, " aikk!, slalu alekk lambt, nie hari alekk awal plakk. mestii ader pape tau tapii baguslahh, nie aru anakk papa" dats wat he sayy n he gort de cheek to laughh when im in de pain. i told hyme dat i gort stomachh cramp n he advised mie to eat panadol or anyy pain medicine. so, listen to his advise eventhoughh i hate medicine. i just could nort take de paiin. arghhhhh! den, papa asked mie, "dhh mkn ker blum? " den i sayy, "dh2, tadii pagi2 mkn NASI BERYANI". in de morniing, i ate nasii beryani. wahhh. huge appetitte. yest nite, i did nort even ate a single thiing at nite. dat y im freakiing hungryy dis morniing. still, i gort no mood to eat coz myy stomachh hurt. im hungryy but bcoz of stomachh cramp, i gort no mood. i must force myself to eat if nort i will get gastric. myy parents will be worried sickk abt mie if i did nort eat. tkk nkk susahh kan myy parents nantii. deyy are soo damn bz wif theiir werks n i do nort want theirr werkk affected bcoz of mie. b4 eatiing panadols, i took a bathh n everitinkk. look freakkiing freshhh. den, eat panadol. watchh tv n went to LALA land 4 awhile. when i woke up, i felt somethiing nort rite. myy heart beat soo fast. i don know whyy. haixx. its terriblyy. arghhhh!

i told mr rufi abt it n he asked mie whyyyyyyy. i don know whyy i became lyke dis. i told mr rufi, bcoz of dat ex of mine, i became lyke dis. yahhh, i still thinkk n miss dat ex of mine. i wondered how he is n everitinkkk. onlyy god knows how's is he. haixx. i felt damn stupid siaaaa. after wat happened, i still thinkk of hyme. i must believe in myself n i hope i cld forget de past. ohh yahhh, chatted wif najib at msn. i told hyme abt dis. nvm lahh najib. wat you sayy is true, its myy lyfe rite. i know its myy lyfe n i gort myy own wayy to solve myy prob. atleast, i need a friend to lend a ear n listen to wat i felt. am i wrong to need a friend? seriouslyy, i don need a help from you. its alright. dats myyyyy lyfe. too manyy probs.

no mood.

atin oh atin.