WITH LOVE,ATIN.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

hello readers out dere!

atlast assingment & everything had be done~. weee~ sungguhh legaaa. & i intend to eat alot when i was having moodswing. lagi2 tyme bulan mcm gini. hahahaha! i know i have hurt alot of peoples nowadays including my mum. :/ scolded mama for no reason. sorry mama. i dun mean it. i just said but actually i dun mean it. i say dat i dun want to meetlahh. dun want to do dis lahh. do dat lahh but deep inside my heart, i dun mean it. yahhh, im sorry for dat.

i dun know why but i feel lyke im changing alot. as in im nort the old mie. fatin atiqah who used to be & now i changed being a stubborn gerl. alot of changes & i can see dat. even mirah & those who noes mie since secondary said i change alot. i dun know why i became lyke dis. maybe bcoz of ari, i be lyke dis. a guy who i used to love alot in the past. i know its all in the past & i shld nort brought it up again but when looked at our pictures, i will intend to think abt how i went through wif hyme. those up's & down. yahh, i still kept the pictures & even the bangles dat he bought for mie. i really2 wanted to throw away all his things as i know its nort worth to keep it. but when i thinkk bck, just kept it as memories from my ex & i dun thinkk its wrong to keep it. dosen't mean i still keep it, i still love hyme. no okay. my love for hyme had gone long tyme agooo. & its nort worth to think & love someone who dun appreciate every single things we did. at ferst, its nort easy to forget hyme but after those advices from my fellow friends, i realized watever they said is trueee. his nort worthh & i started to move on bit by bit. & bit by bit im used without hyme from my lyfe. without hyme by my lyfe, made my lyfe peaceful. when i wif hyme in the past, every single day, he made mie cried, cried, cried, cried till i gort no tears to cry anymore. its damn bloody hurt & only god know's how i had been throughh all dis while. i always listen to every single werd he say. i respect hyme. i never shouted back even all his werds were hurt. i just kept quiet. & im the one who always said sorry even its nort my fault bcoz i dun wishh to lose hyme. im the one who always gave in. i sacrifice alot for hyme till i did nort even sleep & sumtyme i did nort went hm bcoz of hyme. yes! bcoz of hyme, i made mama cried. i hurt mama. i made mama worried & everything. when i gort to know he gort another gerl, i still love hyme. & yah, i was stupid at dat point of tyme but den ppl dun know its nort easy for mie. i still want hyme at dat point of tyme. i still dun wishh to let hyme gooo. he dun know how faithful i were towards hyme. i did nort even find another guy. even he far right from mie, i still waited for hyme patiently.

i kept telling myself, wat i did wrong towards ari in the past till he did dat to mie? am i wrong to love someone? dats the reason why im nort in a relationship lyke how my friends. i missed being in the relationship but at the same tyme, im afraid n nort ready. im afraid things will be lyke in the past. i know nort all guys are the same. & i cannot said that they are the same lyke ari. wat i can say is, tyme will tell everything. i dun wishh to rushh things out. & also, im used being single. & once i already love someone, i will surely love hyme whole-heartedly. & i believe the happinesss will come sooon, sooon, sooon & sooner. watever is it, be patience. dats all. lyke wat in the fairytale say, we live happily ever after kan kan? hahaha!

seee seee, i already let out everything of wat i went through in the past. when i think bck, it was lyke super sad kan. ): wat to doooooooo. watever ari did to mie, i already forgive hyme & im nort a bad person to hold grudges toward hyme. its nort mie. i believe in karma. dats all. watever happened to hyme now is a lesson to be learn.

Thanks to dis cute lil shory gerl, syiqin. hee! ily! ily! ily! i had fun wif her. meet up soon again okay? :D dun ever said youu are fat. youu are cute youu know. :D

proving sumthing to someone is nort easy. by saying its nort just enoughh.

atin oh atin.